Monday, March 7, 2016

My cycle of depression and passion when writing

My writing cycle tends to have its ups and downs.  For example I need to knock 3 papers out this week, but before I start a paper I get super depressed.  I feel like my writing is not good enough while I question staying in school.  Currently I’m in the depression stage of writing.  Hopefully it will wear off in the process of this blog so I can get to work.  My process usually goes from depression to intense passionate writing   where I personally feel like my research makes a difference in the field of academia I am writing to.  This semester has been very difficult on my writing process because I’ve not been able to give a full 100% to my studies like I have in the past.  The comprehensive exams are right around the corner, and I’m literally freaking the F out about them.  The fear of failing them and being kicked out of the program terrifies me.  

3 comments:

  1. Repeat after me: I am not an impostor. I am not an impostor. I am not an impostor...

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  2. I had to smile when I read this post. Not at your pain, but at how it reminded me of the exact same stress I faced when I was in the final stretches of my MFA program. And all of my classmates felt the same too - we feared failure, exposure for the frauds we KNEW we were, and a slew of other anxieties. But, we all made it and had a good laugh at ourselves during graduation.
    Grad school = stress. Accept it. Embrace it. and know that all will turn out just fine. Like it always does.

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